Got an email from someone asking why I don’t post more entries at night if I’m not able to post them during the day. The simple answer is: I’m ADD.
Being that I’m not on the Adderall medication I was taking to help me focus I have to put more effort into paying attention to doing my job during the day. This uses up a lot of mental energy (for lack of a better term) and by the time I get home I just don’t feel like having to think too hard and, despite the seemingly easy brilliance my entries may present to the public, I often have to think really hard about what I write. So if I manage to blog at all in the evening it’ll usually be the easy throw away entries like the one about the stripping magician I put up last night. Those are easy to write (Look! A naked magician! Ha ha!).
The shit where I get all reflective and profound takes a lot of effort to come up with, kick around in my head, write a draft, decide whether I’ve managed to stick to the point I was trying to make, decide whether it really matters if I stuck to the point I was trying to make, revise to sound less like an idiot and perhaps put a bit of humor in, and then decide if I really want to submit it to the site or scrap it and go play World of Warcraft for a bit instead. For every entry I post there’s probably at least three others that never see completion because I get distracted and toss them out before I even get halfway through writing them. It also doesn’t help that when I’m at home I have all my toys here to tempt me. I’ve got no less than 8 different video games I’m in the process of playing, 3 different DVDs I need to watch and return to Netflix, two different books I’m in the middle of reading, two blogs I’m hosting that I need to work on templates for, and two compilations of Foxtrot comics Courtney checked out of the library for me to enjoy.
So that’s why I don’t write more crap in the evening, but I’m working on changing that. Fortunately I’ve been lucky enough to have jobs that make blogging during the day possible and this one seems like it’ll be much the same once things settle down a bit. Also once the insurance kicks in I’ll be able to get back on the medication I was using and that should help with both focusing and using less mental energy during the day.